Can I have permission to take a vacation please?
After pushing through months of dread, toil and barely treading fast enough to breath and stay afloat for more peaceful times it comes to this. I have scheduled myself to take the whole glorious week off and not do too much of anything if I don't want to.
But. But. Buuuut! I hear this resounding shout in my head!
There is a crazed squirrel in there on one of those hamster wheels spinning and spitting its crazyisms at me! Non-stop!
Now that I have a week I could devote to my own BEing and healing when I so badly need to just hang on the floatie with my drink choice and just chill out on the waves of life this incessant little squirrel is ranting on and on!
Yes, yes I answer it. I know my life hasn't been easy.
Yes, I know my financial future is sketchy.
Yes, I do acknowledge many more aches and pains just trying to get around.
And yes I have that post 50 slow down.
So I say to it "so won't you please slow down too?"
It's squirelly little flaming eyes flash back at me in indignation as it scampers off in a furry and a fluff of it's tail as if to say "are you f...ing nuts?"
I here it say we have to worry about...
"how we are going to make it?"
"what will happen when?"
"how will we provide for us?"
"your body hurts now, well it'll hurt a lot more if we don't use every minute and breath of our "now" to create a better "then."
Oh! ho! ho! ho! Fear has come to the party in my head and body too!
Every ache and pain I feel in this moment while writing is screaming at me....
"It could get worse."
"You might not be able to move."
"What if there is no money?"
"What if there is no roof?"
"What about your beloved dogs?"
"We need a comfortable place to rest."
"We need... We need.. We need""I don't want to be 70, 80, 90 and in pain saying if only you had done more that day..., those days, those years."
So I see....
Well I say to this rather rabid furry frenzied creature, I can only solve one of those questions today.
But you, YOU WILD WILD THING are going to have to help!
In fact you are going to have to do the very most!" It's bugged out wild eyes stare back to me as it freezes in its tracks as if to once more say to me 'are you f....ing kidding me?"
I take a super deep breath and gaze at it as if to completely hold it in my best and most powerful loving embrace and I smile and whisper to it....
"yes dear one,
you need to let me rest this week,
to rejuvenate, to heal,
to take long breaths and float on life's water ways with out a peep from you.
"do you think you can help me do this I ask with my widest open heart.
can we just take a vacation this week?"
It looks back at me in shock and horror and pure disbelief...
I hold steady my most loving gaze...
Ramp up the volume of radiant Light from my Heart...enfolding, encircling, embracing....
I hear it crying well what about? and what about? and what will? And I bring it close and give it a loving squeeze and whisper "next week dearie, next week!
So my Squirrel and I and my Dogs are taking a much need and long over due stay-cation vacation this week... Plush beach towels... sunscreen, hats, music, books and snacks we will endeavor to just enjoy! To let the ever running pinwheel of life come unraveled...who knows what might fall out and possibly be put out for good.
Join us if you can... We've got lots of nuts and it may be a moment by moment situation but we are going to vacate to our fullest ability!
Peace out,
Me, Bailey, Bandit and yes the Red Head Squirrel
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